Ode to a Ferret

I'm suddenly and heavily struck with the humbling and amazing value of life. as i sit in the living room afraid to go into our bedroom to check on our sick ferret molly, i'm shocked at the emotion and compassion i have for this animal. all logic and reason tells me "she is simply an animal" and "death is the way of life." but i'm struck at the error of this thought. we were never intended to die. i am reminded we are made for more, and in moments of grief like this, i know, deep within my being, that i was made for more. not that i was made to accomplish "great things" in this life, but i was made for MORE. for another world, another life, another way of being. i was made for LIFE, like i've never known. all i and we as people have ever known is death, this is the legacy of this world. but i am built for more, and i know this without a doubt due to the resonence in my being that tells me there must be more, there is more...and in these moments, i no longer doubt, all insecurity and the dark corner of my reason that fights against the unknown truth of God are gone for this moment. i see heaven in life and love. i don't see streets of gold, i don't see mansions. i see the faces of strangers that i know. i see joy. i see LIFE. and suddenly i am no longer afraid. i no longer fear the passing of this death. i understand Paul when he asks "death, where is your sting?" suddenly i am surrounded by the joy and life of friends like i've never experienced.

the other thing that i am shocked by is the amount of compassion and love i can scrounge up for a furry weasel, but the stunning lack of compassion and love for people around me in the world that i have carried for almost 27 years. i care less about the life of the homeless outside, the neighbor whose name i don't know, or the kids in my buildings courtyard, than i do for molly. and i wonder how is this possible? how far am i from who i was created to be i wonder...i hope and pray i am back on the path that leads me home, to the home i've never seen or experienced, but that i know.

so to my pet molly. i have loved our time together and pray we will have more. but if this is the end of your life, thank you for using yours to teach me about mine.